sejak kmaren malem, gue jadi mikir..
emang bener ya, hidup orang tuh engga bisa ditebak banget. beneraan..

kmaren malem kakaknya andri pass away. gue emang ngga terlalu kenal dan deket sama andrinya, tapi karena eka deket ruamh gue, ya gue dateng aja. andrea sempet telpon, nanya nomer rumah ken soalnya hp nya ga bisa dihubungin. sampe sana ternyata uda rame sama sodara nya andri.

jujur, ekspetasi gue adalah saat sampai di sana, andri mungkin lagi nangis atau gimana. soalnya gue sering bacain blog nya dia, gimana dia sayaaaanngg banget sama kakaknya itu, pasti kehilangan banget.
ternyata nggak.
pas gue sampe, dia uda ngga nangis lagi, dia malah bisa ngobrol cerita2 pas terakhir2 kakaknya.
pas badannya anyo dimandiin terus dipakein jas, andri megangin kakinya sambil meringis. tapi dia ngga nangis, andrea ama gita malah nangis.

kita ngga tau ya hidup orang gimana..
pokoknya buat andri, andri hebat banget, gue salut banget sama dia! buat kakaknya andri, gue doain dari sini..

jadi mikir gue. hidup sesingkat itu ya?

nyokap gue pernah ngasih liat puisi tentang 'the dash' (garis strip)
sekarang gue baru ngerti artinya apa.

The Dash by Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning...to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
and spoke of the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on earth
and now only those who loved her
know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own,
the cars..the house..the cash.
What matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard:
are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
that can still be reaaranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real
and always try to understand
the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives
like we're never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile..
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy is being read
with your lofe's actions to rehash,
would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent your dash?